lost for words .

i`ve learned something about myself this year . if i put all my energy & focus on something, nothing can distract me from what i want . march 2, 2009 imade the biggest commitment to someone, because ilove this person with all i have . and no this is not no puppy love, ive lived with this person for about a year now . honestly ive never been soo infatuated with someone, ive never looked at someone the way ilook at this person . bt honestly i have come to my breaking point about 2 weeks ago . whhhhhy put so much energy into someone when they arent given the same or more bacck ? something that was once so genuine. iremember about a year ago, iwas looking at 3 of my bestfriends who were having problems in their relationships, like " wtf are you doing? we are young F*** a nigga" like seriously i wass on that kind of tip . and i always wondered whyy they wouldnt just leave, like it couldnt be that hard . until i was put in the same situation . when i leave i feel like i cant breathe, all i can think about is you . idont wanna move, talk , nothing . if im not with you im not happy, period . im not over exaggerating . my biggest feaar is that if i leave, iwont find someone like you . But, i deserve to be HAPPY .