lost for words .

i`ve learned something about myself this year . if i put all my energy & focus on something, nothing can distract me from what i want . march 2, 2009 imade the biggest commitment to someone, because ilove this person with all i have . and no this is not no puppy love, ive lived with this person for about a year now . honestly ive never been soo infatuated with someone, ive never looked at someone the way ilook at this person . bt honestly i have come to my breaking point about 2 weeks ago . whhhhhy put so much energy into someone when they arent given the same or more bacck ? something that was once so genuine. iremember about a year ago, iwas looking at 3 of my bestfriends who were having problems in their relationships, like " wtf are you doing? we are young F*** a nigga" like seriously i wass on that kind of tip . and i always wondered whyy they wouldnt just leave, like it couldnt be that hard . until i was put in the same situation . when i leave i feel like i cant breathe, all i can think about is you . idont wanna move, talk , nothing . if im not with you im not happy, period . im not over exaggerating . my biggest feaar is that if i leave, iwont find someone like you . But, i deserve to be HAPPY .

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-- shaa .

2009 holidays .

since the lost of my great grandmother a little earlier this yeaar
holidays haven't been how they used to be . normally I would be
ecstatic for a holiday, to be with my family was the best . this year I
wasn't around for easter or thanksgiving . 1 yr ouutta 18yrs ihavent
attended a family gathering . im a little saddened by it, I know that I
am growing apart from my family due to certain events [ that's a whole
different blog ] lol . lets see what happens xmass .
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idecided .

thaat iwould like to come back to my blogging, as you can see ihavent blogged for a yeaar & summ. and even then i was rarely on my own blogg, ifeatured as an author on the welcome to the circle blogg . now its time to do my own thing . you would be suprised if you knew half of whats happened in this past year, a lot of huge changes . bt from now on i would like to take you guys on a journey with me . where are we going ? no suure . whever the wind blows .lol

welcometothecircle.com

if youu didnnt know alreaady, im ann author onn the welcometothecircle blog . which will soon be my maain blogg, thhis onne really haas no puurpose L0l . the circle blog also incluudes thhe boys from 2much, khris crumby annd amanda[BB], which is considered thhe circle, its a really hot site, very interestinng, cheeeck it ouut !!!!

taake it baack .

yess yess yess, youu seee it . L0l . i caan saay abouut 4 yeaars ago thiss pictuure waas taakin . my besstfrieends !!!!!! thiss is wheen life waas greeat, noot thaat it isnnt noow buut thiss was the timme of my life, a sectioon of my life that i donnt thinnk i`d ever forgeet, god forbed if i do !!!
LR[ nena p. younngin, shaneece, marcel, me, milo, chris kinng, & amanda ] if youu meet uss baack theen youu wouuld haave met 8 downn to earth & wild childreen, & yes wee werre really younng inn this pictuure L0l . thou

ugh we arre all 8 differennt people, withh 8 differrennt personality`s & outlooks onn lifee, togetherr we arre all onne . this is whhy we arre thhe circle & shall remain inspite of the passt technically difficulty L0l . & this onne -->

waas my 16th birthdaaay, almost onne of the happiest days of myy life : ]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

meet thhe cirrle .

whhts the cirrcle ?? hmmm . itss noot really forr youu to knnw, but yuu caan meet the people whoo arre inn it .

1.

everryonne knoow theem righht .... yes its 2muuch, to youu thaat is . to me theey arre all my brothherrss . [LR] christopheerr: youu`ve alwaays beeen a btcch nigga L0l jk . marceel: i lovee youuu, BSB forevvverr LOsterrrr: youur my couusin i dont haave a choicee . hahah youunginn: youurrr, youuur, youur you, thaats whhy i lovee youuu .

2.

annd theeen theres ashhy-lyn & i . L0l . thhe double-minnt twinns themselves . we arre inseperable !!!! i lovee thiss girl, shes my bestfrieend & the realest female i knooow . excuse my haair its weaave-less LMAO .

3.

yeaa youu seee it, its marlena, the infamous nena p . she is part of the circle still, reguardless of everythinng we`ve been throuugh, gotta lovee herrr . & therres amannda my othher BFF . its always a love/hate situation withh herr, buuut youu lovee herr reguardless tooooo !


THHHE ENND !